Friday, October 26, 2007

11:00 PM

amelia

last day of school today.

zhanglaoshi flew to chiangmai already.
felt quite..weird. like last day of school. and your form teacher for 2 years is not there. you feel abit abandoned? i think our class dint really appreciate him these 2 years. the only one time we showed our erm. gratitude to him was during teachers' day? all the hiding and surprising him and stuff...

2 years seem to have passed quickly.

suddenly feel that im part of this play or something. people come and go in your life and you are just this character that someone out there is making. during the process you have fun and quarrels. then when poeple leave you feel sad and make promises about staying in contact and blahblah. but these doesnt really happen do they? like primary school end of year p6 everyone talked abt staying in touch and meeting up frequently in sec sch and all that. but now like. i see my primary sch 'best friend' we dont even talk. then like when 37 ma'ams left last year our squad felt quite. sad. maybe it was just that we dint expect them to leave so fast. but then again they still leave and then now is like. like that lor.

farewell is always sad. but then again its part and parcel of what everyone calls life. cherish people around you before they leave. but no one can really do that can they? no matter how much you treasure them it wont be enough. in a way. and then most of the time when you have them around you you wont really have the 'urge' to treasure them.

i dont think im talking sense.

103'06 and 203'07 spent 2 years together. and now we are like ___. what will happen to our squad next time? in sec 4 end of year we will probably be quite sad and everything. but will we still be together 10 years down the road? will be even remember each other? 4 years later when we are in jc2 will we still keep in touch?

these few days actually this whole week our class was quite high. maybe this was our way of saying farewell to each other? like replaying our memories? singing class song. the my love one. the time when we were all sort of strangers to each other. then we had lsc 06 which really bonded us alot. my love was the song that the safra people played at the 'peak' of mt. faber. i wonder if anyone remembered. then from then my love became our class song. quite strange how things actually started actually... cheering our hohoho ha cheer and the bob the builder one. all the cheers we made up in sec one. all the 103'06 memories.
this year.. dint really made any class songs/cheers. actually class songs/cheers are just stepping stones to our bond isnt it? as in like few people in class made up these songs/cheers hoping that we will bond as a class. sort of succeeded bah. this year was more of when classmates become attached to one another. its quite ke xi that we have to leave each other now. we took almost 1 and a half years to get to know one another and people start to open up. then now we have to split up and the whole cycle repeats all over again.

the last half an hour today was nice. sitting on the table at the back of the classroom and like singing songs and cheers and the 'where's the peanut' song... then you feel close to each other. even though not the whole class was there. but at least majority of the people was there. and you feel happy and satisfied and contented etc at that point of time. better than emo-ing lah anyway. no matter how much you cry, you cannot change the fact that our class is going to be split up so. haha. even though crying is a method of releasing your emotions? everyone in class today was not really thinking that it was the last day of school and whatever. just like singing songs, listening to songs, playing cards blahblah like normal post eoys.

class chalet!!! is coming. im really looking forward to it. haha. like the last time we are going to have fun together as a class. 25 people are going at least for the BBQ. not bad. :D i really really hope that wont have act on the second day.
firstly, if have act, i cannot spend the second morning+afternoon at least with classmates
secondly, if have act, i cannot spend the whole night awake or i might just fall asleep while falling in
thirdly, if have act, i must bring whatever we need for act plus sch shirt+skirt to chalet. which is quite. O.O
fourth-ly, if have act, i might not wake up :X coz meichun is not staying overnight if there's act bcoz her mum wont allow. and i think everyone sleeping beside/near me would probably switch off the alarm if i set one especially if it rings at 5.30 or something. somemore now my hp siao one. set alarm also wont ring. -_-
fifth-ly, if have act, i might consider skipping act. but i dont really want to miss act you see
six-ly, there's no advantages [to me] if have act. therefore, there are more cons than pros of having act
in conclusion, best is dont have act (:

on another note, i wonder if my pri. sch class really going to have chalet. like last year say until this year also havent have chalet. and then right. my pri. sch class is not really bonded. okay we are not bonded at all so abit no point.

on yet another note, i hope our sqd have chalet. or at least a BBQ. like since last year dunno when said want to have chalet until this year even though we gave up on the idea of having chalet but still it would be nice to have one. even though that goh ying already say she wont want to go even if have chalet but then she might change her mind you see.

last day of school doesnt feel like last day of school because i dont feel free ):
knowing that theres still going to be lots of things to do.
sometimes i really wish i will never wake up after falling asleep.
such freedom! we'll be carefree! with nothing to do!
and right, its the easiest and least complicated way and least painful way of dying (:
anyway..im not thinking of dying. not because i dont want to but just because i dont know how to and i dont really dare anyway so yea. -__-

our batch very unlucky leh. two consecutive years no family day outing. last year because of haze this year because of rain. like wth?! the weather dont like us ): not that i really love to go outdoors but i rather go sembawang park whereever that is than stay in class and stone. haha.


"103'06 and 203'07 may not mean anything to others but to the 33 of us, it meant 2 years of our life"
i'll miss you all 203 people! especially the 3 of you out there whom i know you 3 wont probably see this but oh well. if one of you really see this i hope you know im referring to you (:
and i know there's only like 0.00001% chance of the 4 of us getting into the same class.................................