Wednesday, January 24, 2007

6:17 PM

yijung.

i'm sorry. i know a sorry couldnt possibly amend anything. so, just hope that you are not hurt! i'm really sorry that i was mean to you today... or many many other days that i couldnt rmb.. i'm really sorry that i said so taorenyan stuff that it even make myself pissed off. HAIZ. really really hope that it has not hurt you and if it did, i'm really very very sorry.

i never ever really want to say that i hate our sqd. even last time when sqms say that they hate our squad, i was reluctant to agree with them. i do not want to hate us. i love you all. but.. i just feel so sad whenever i think abt it. we said that the meeting is compulsory, yet not all came. even all come le and if we just talked abt normal stuff and not impt stuff they will just go: "if nothing to do i want to go back le." is seeing and talking to sqms so tong4 ku3 for you? i'm not referring to those sqms who really got impt things to do like hw or meet teacher or anyth.. i suddenly haf the feeling that i should not be saying all these. cos somehow, eveyone always look at other ppl's mistakes but not at their own. i think i haf high possiblities of being one of them too. so seriously i haf no rights to come here and lecture... or maybe i was just having too high expectations for us that i do not have confidence in reaching... T_T

haiz. why am i sounding so serious. VERY TAO YAN LEH!!! I HATE MYSELF. haiz. i think i am really having mood swings. ARGH. or maybe it was 更年期. hoho. maybe i am just getting old. -_= sorry sqms. do not take the content above to heart. some stupid thing. haiz. ORH YES, sqms, i was still very moody when i was in sch. but then during 3rd lang i 终于想通了! i was thinking that why am i saying so taorenyan stuff and all that. and why am i always having the sian look recently? then soundly all these sounds very familiar and it matches with someone!!! i think this kind so mood was chao1 xiang4 to that of _______ ____'s!!! OMG. i dont want to be like her can. even if i like her most. TSK.

yayyie. we shud be happy! ((: i know that everyone of us is under EXTREME STRESS. and i was feeling so sian cos of that. so we shud make sqms WANT to come sqd meetings! sqd meetings shud be our source of distress yay! but for now, it is not quite possible as tests are coming and 3rd class.. jiayou sqms! :)

btw, besides sqd problem, i think i shud talk abt some class problem too. SEC 212 has totally changed. i think we are becoming more and more mean and irritating. WHERE IS THE OLD 112?? i really dislike the way we drag our words when we greet teachers. seriously i got annoyed by it. what is so nice about that huh? making teachers feel annoyed very nice meh? hMPh. we are BAD. and shall talk to xiaoen abt it and try to convey it to the class that we were really MEAN. tsk.

lalala. hope that sqms wont be angry at my stupid post. ((: afterall. i still think that i do not hate sqms. jiayou sqms! let's just get outta this stressed and complicated-squad-problem situation together! we are 40! and sure we can do it! [please smile, sqm, although i could not see if you are smiling, but please smile. yay. :)]

bye!

ps: can we take a new sqd photo someday? :) and sqd outings after CT!